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Rick Lewis's avatar

I respect your exercise to fully acknowledge and feel this loss Jeff. That seems useful and important. I had a mentor who used to say that we are all "crushed by love" no matter what direction we go or choose. Even pursuing opportunities all the way to the full, you're crushed eventually by no longer having the physical capacity or mental acuity or emotional stamina to sustain that level of performance. No matter what, the things we most enjoy and people we most love are impermanent, and eventually we suffer the dissolution of them. Living fully seems to be the only answer, along with the heartbreak that comes from the expiration of the beauty and joys that come with it.

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Andrew Gallucci's avatar

Felt this one hit my soul. I can attest to the level of ball skill you have.

I remember we talked about you walking on senior year — I think it was after try outs already occurred. At the end of the day, I think you learned and experienced more with the lifestyle you chose than you would’ve if you were on the UMass team. The only year I think you really would’ve enjoyed it substantially more than the alternative would’ve been senior year.

You also have to remember that unfortunately some of us don’t reach our peak physically until 22-27 years old. As a freshman/sophomore (maybe even junior year) it would’ve been very difficult to compete with such physically mature athletes.

I don’t think you should let this missed opportunity bother you too much. College was awesome 🤣

However, I think you can find a way to make unique content on this passion of yours. Get creative and start playing more. Competition can be found anywhere, and you don’t have to deal with a coach, NCAA rules, politics. Nothing, just ball. Time is not up!!

(I often find myself thinking these thoughts with my newly found passion of jiu jitsu. I started at the age of 20, adulthood, because I wasn’t allowed to play contact sports or similar actives as a kid. I think I’m pretty gifted at grappling, so I often find myself thinking about how I wish I was I was put into wrestling as a kid. What could’ve happened? Was the sky the limit? Would I have wrestled in college?

Well let’s say that is what would’ve happened. It wouldn’t have been UMass. I wouldn’t have met all the people and learned all the things that shaped me into the person I am today.

And guess what, I still roll around on the mats every day.)

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